• Why write about suicide?
    This is quite a difficult topic for me to write about. Due to it being suicide prevention week, I felt that I should write something, but in all honesty, it’s really hard. I’ve sta […]

  • Between working, family and maintaining a home, it’s tiring. It means that we probably don’t go out as often as we would like, and definitely don’t see or talk to the people we care about nearly as often as we wo […]

  • I found out on Friday past that I have been discharged from my counselling sessions. The reason for this is because I’ve moved to a new house and Royal Mail had only gone and messed up my redirection! So, with t […]

  • My Experiences
    This will probably be my most candid blog yet, but one I feel is important to write. When I was 11 years old I began to smoke cigarettes. At the time school dinners were 65p, and a packet of 10 […]

  • A few years ago, I watched a movie called “Pay it Forward” with Helen Hunt and Haley Joel Osment. Such a good movie. For those of you that haven’t seen it, it’s all about a boy who chooses to ‘Pay it forward i […]

  • Those of you who know me, may not be surprised to know I’m quite an intolerant person. There are certain traits in people that quite literally get my back up and fill me with rage. A few examples are; […]

  • This time last year I wrote ‘Always Angry’, I still remember writing this and how bitter/angry I was at the time. When this was published I was going through a few personal problems, mostly issues with bel […]

  • Back in May, I wrote Rainbows and Other Bullshit. I was feeling very low when I wrote this, as things I was having to deal with felt hopeless. I was doubting myself as a Mum, wife, and friend. I hadn’t fallen i […]

  • Well don’t I feel like an especially silly cow today! Why, I hear you ask?

    I have woken up in a relatively good mood, and looked in the bathroom mirror to see that the pores on my nose are the size of craters. […]

  • It’s been a few weeks since my last post. I have just been so busy with work, doing over time, having to find/arrange yet another house move etc, that I’ve barely had time to think. Thanks to being so busy, I hav […]

  • On Tuesday both of my girls woke up, feeling feverish, with a sore throat and ears. They were off school for a couple of days, and then my youngest got it. I always dread when the kids are unwell, for fear I’ll g […]

  • “You can’t have a rainbow without a little rain”? This must be the biggest lot of bollox I’ve heard in a while! This has been said by people who experience minor inconveniences! It’s like when people say “Money ca […]

  • My recent appointment with my counsellor, was really just a catch up. She wanted to know how my anxiety had been, and I was pleased to say, it was almost non-existent. Whilst I’d had moments where I felt it c […]

  • In the last few weeks, since being on the 30mg a day, my side effects have worsened. My lips are dry, cracking and peeling. My skin is very dry in patches and I’m having to moisturise them constantly. My eyes a […]

  • Another Baby?
    In 2007, 2 weeks after my husband proposed, I started to feel quite ill. I had felt sick and just generally off for a couple of days, before a friend of mine persuaded me to buy a pregnancy test. I […]

  • Since starting my CBT, I have been feeling much better. I’m not saying I’m cured, or that I even feel remotely close to being cured, but I feel more in control. The most in control I have felt for a long time. My […]

  • During my appointment last week, we spoke about my triggers and I was given a sheet of paper to be able to record them. On this sheet, was a table with the following headings:

    Trigger – What has caused the […]

  • For those of you that have read my previous blogs regarding my initial appointments (1st appointment, 2nd, & 3rd), you’ll know that I’ve found this whole experience difficult. I guess you could say a little ove […]

  • I hummed and hawed over doing this blog site, I toyed with the idea for years. It wasn’t something that was done lightly, and a lot of things were considered. It may surprise a lot of you to know this, but, I may […]

  • My counsellor wanted to help me see the pattern of where my negative feelings toward myself have stemmed from. To do this, I was given a bit of paper with a series of headings. Under each I was to fill in short […]

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